Wallflowers: Double Trouble by CP Smith

Author:CP Smith [Smith, CP]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: cpsmith
Published: 2017-07-20T18:30:00+00:00

Seven

WHAT IF

A SOFT BREEZE LIFTED MY hair as I stared silently at the stars. The moon shone in the gloom of the night sky. The old man’s face hid behind a sliver of shadows as the stars danced around it, peeking out like fireflies at twilight. I’d always preferred the darkness of night to daylight. The vastness of the universe made most feel small and insignificant, but for me, it was a time to dream. A time to plot the course of my life away from my family. I’d lie in my bed trying to find the constellations, wondering if there was a man out there staring at the same night sky, thinking about me as well. I’d try to picture him. His hair color, his eye color, whether he was tall or medium height. His face would never come to me, but his presence was always there somewhere between dusk and dawn. He’d appear in that place between consciousness and dreams, a shadowed figure reaching out his hand for me to take hold, beckoning me to trust him.

Looking over my shoulder where Bo sat with Devin, I wondered if I’d finally found that man. “Men at some time are masters of their fates. The fault is not in our stars but in ourselves,” I whispered. The abbreviated quote from Shakespeare’s Julius Caesar seemed apropos. I was master of my fate if I chose to follow it. If I didn’t, it wasn’t fate’s fault, but my own.

Had fate led me to Bo?

I’d accepted Bo as the man in my life with little argument, but I was holding back from the one aspect of a relationship that brought a man and woman closer, and I wasn’t sure why anymore.

I wasn’t a child, a fresh-faced college student with stars in her eyes, but a woman. So why was I acting like the virgin I was?

“How did you know that Devin was the one for you?” I asked Cali.

She and Poppy were sitting on the top railing of the horse corral, silently taking in the beauty of the night as well.

“I knew he was the one when I jumped on the trolley. I was prepared to turn my back on us to protect him from my granddaddy, but I couldn’t breathe at the thought of what I was leavin’ behind.”

I closed my eyes, wondering what it would feel like if Bo were to change his mind. I drifted back to earlier in the evening when he’d said he wanted to slow down, and how my immediate reaction had been emptiness. I’d turned my back on him to hide my tears, but I remembered a pain in my chest, as if I couldn’t fill my lungs. The thought of being so close to what I’d always wanted had tumbled around in my head, then extreme relief had pulsed through me when he’d clarified his statement.

“You said that you thought fallin’ in love happens by chance. Serendipity. That it’s like walkin’ into a room and bam, you just know when you lay eyes on them that they’re the one.

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